2,557 days ago, exactly 7 years ago, I stepped out in faith
and walked into a new life. It would be
wonderful to say I had a grand plan, direction, or purpose, but I did not. Literally, I was walking blindly from the
world’s and even my own perspective. I looked into the faces of my sons and said
where do you want to live, and they chose to return to our previous town. I had no where to live, no job …just a car
full of stuff, 2 amazing boys, and a dog.
The only thing I knew is who we were spending the night with and where
the boys were to report to school the next day.
It now, quite literally, seems insane.
But, like many things we think to be insane, God was at work. Although I will never understand His tactics,
I do trust His plan. I know I have not
always, I have doubted, I have denied, I have fought against, but ultimately it
is all His plan and there is a peace in that.
Peace is something that does
not come naturally to me. I am an anxious
person …a worrier, an over thinker, a mind racer, scenario creator, all dripping
with a terribly wild imagination. But,
finally, there are things that I have peace about. Issues I never thought I
would lay to rest because I did not understand them or didn’t know “why.” Peace came when I realized it does not
matter. I do not have to know “why” and there are things I will never
understand. God gets it – ALL. He knows “why” and He understands.
“These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.”
John 16:33
