But this year...I feel some of that childhood excitement creeping back. I am tentative about it all in some ways, not wanting to feel disappointed or disappoint my children; but some of the magic has touched me. I have even already been listening to White Christmas in the car!
This is the first year in several that I have looked forward to putting up a Christmas tree. I even have a theme that has caught my fancy and I can't wait to see it come together. Items have been being gathered for this tree for several weeks now. I know financially our Christmas will be scaled back but I am already excited to know all my children will be here along with my parents (if their health allows.) When the kids are here and all the dogs are here it can be quite a raucous crowd but nothing is better than the sound of a house full of joy and love.
No, I didn't do any Black Friday shopping as I am afraid that might have put out the small little spark of Christmas Spirit I have! I a protecting this spark and hoping it grows into a flame and fills my heart with the true spirit of Christmas and gives me the energy to celebrate fully and make memories that will last for a lifetime. Lets get this party started!
I'm so glad you've reconnected with me, Michelle. You were one of my first followers way back in 2010 when I first started blogging. I love this post...true words from the heart. Life can get so difficult for many of us, but sometimes (not always) those difficult times can make us stronger and more appreciative of what we do have. On my last day of chemo last year, my nurse gave me a small gift with a beautiful message attached: "You never know how strong you are, until being strong is the only option you have." The little gift was sweet, but the card with these words was the true gift...my daily mantra. I hope that they might bring comfort to you, Michelle. I pray you will keep that little Christmas sparkle and that it might continue to grow and fill your heart with happiness throughout this season and into the next, and the next and the next.
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Carol
I love this post! I can remember that same feeling, years ago, after a particular long painful stretch in my life. I remember being surprised, that I felt that little tingle of holiday excitement. It was like something was awakened, a friend I had not seen in a long time returned. Merry Christmas sweet friend! Joy...Joy...Joy
ReplyDeleteI'm praying your spark is fanned into a glorious flame of hope & joy!!! 🎄❤️✨
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