Anyway, below is part of that post and it seems I am still saying "what else?" and praying for something to seem like a purpose and to make sense...
"Somehow though, we seem to be in the cross hairs of something because a couple of issues have arisen that have me shaking my head and wondering, "what else?" Yes...mostly I seem to be asking God, "What else?" I feel like a little kid most of the time when I come to God in prayer these days. I probably sound like a spoiled child to Him for the most part, I am sure. "What else, God?" But, I will still go before Him, knowing He is there and loving me. I am thankful that even in my most drained, tired, angry, fearful moments He is there."
"The enemy wouldn't be attacking you if something valuable wasn't inside of you!
Thieves don't break into empty houses!
You've got purpose!"
~author unknown
I don't think you should look at it like, "Every choice I have made over the last few years seems to have been wrong." Every choice you've made has been a prayerful one. I don't have answers, but I know you aren't careless, and God will honor that.
ReplyDeleteLots of times things just don't make sense! Keep the faith! You continue to be in my prayers! I thought of you this morning as I was leaving the lake house... I was only about 50 miles away from you!
ReplyDelete(((Michelle))) God can make something good out of anything. Just takes some time but he will. You have to grieve what is lost first. But I believe your best days are ahead of you! Wish I could snap my fingers and have you there immediately! Love you sweet friend.
ReplyDeleteRight now, you are still raw and it will take time, and possibly lots of it, before you are not. I know this is an old saying and not very profound, but “When you are going through hell, don’t stop, keep going.” You I think are searching, and that is understandable. You want to know what went wrong. You want closure, but the thing is closure will never make sense. There is no reason, which our mind can accept for such things to happen. I know it is hard to take one day at a time, so I pray you are able to take one minute at a time, for now. I promise you, God will give you enough manna to make it to the next hour. Big hugs.
ReplyDeleteRight now, you are still raw and it will take time, and possibly lots of it, before you are not. I know this is an old saying and not very profound, but “When you are going through hell, don’t stop, keep going.” You I think are searching, and that is understandable. You want to know what went wrong. You want closure, but the thing is closure will never make sense. There is no reason, which our mind can accept for such things to happen. I know it is hard to take one day at a time, so I pray you are able to take one minute at a time, for now. I promise you, God will give you enough manna to make it to the next hour. Big hugs.
ReplyDeleteI don't know everything that has gone on with you over the past few years (since you moved) but it is obvious that you have gone through "various trials." I'm sure you have read the first chapter of the book of James many times but read it again. Read it over and over again. Print it out, put it in a few pretty frames (I know you love home decor) and place it in different places around your house where you will see it all the time. God's Word is His love letter to you and what he says in this beautiful chapter will carry you through many tough times. Thinking of you and praying for you.
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