Where do I even start? There are so many words jumbled in my mind and heart I can't seem to make heads or tails of them. This week has been one of the most challenging of my life. I have been forced to make decisions I never wanted to make and I had to step out in faith...in faith alone. I have had to watch my children's hearts break anew. I have dried more tears than I ever hoped to see in a lifetime, especially from my children. I have had my moments of just wanting to crawl into a hole and never come out. It has been hard. It just seems too hard, it hurts too much, I am so tired of failing.
But through the hard....I truly haven't been alone. God is faithful and He has been here and He is providing and blessing me more than I deserve. Even when my heart doesn't feel it, I know it. My heart is fallible but My Jesus is not. I have cried tears of my own this week...some from the over flowing blessings and some from over flowing pain and I keep singing this song and praying for peace.
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Oh, give me back my joy again; you have broken me--now let me rejoice.
~Psalm 51:8
I love you. I love you. You are not a failure. YOU'RE NOT! Sharing your pain...praying for you and your sweet children.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for what you're going through! God keeps his promises :)
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for what you're going through! God keeps his promises :)
ReplyDeleteWill continue to keep you in my prayers!
ReplyDeleteGod is with you and will provide. We're lifting you and your sweet family in prayer. Big hugs!
ReplyDeletePraying for you still. -Carla
ReplyDeleteI wish there was a magic pill that I could give you to get you past the process to the “other side.” Unfortunately, there is not one. I can’t imagine how heartbreaking it is for you, to not only hurt for yourself but for your children. I may not be able to give you a magic pill; I can surely continue to pray for you and your family. Big hugs to you Michelle.
ReplyDeleteYou are CERTAINLY no failure! Sending love & support!!!
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